Oyinda Loves Books

Recently I’ve been going through a rough patch and I feel demotivated and uninterested in a lot of things. It’s been especially hard because I have a lot of engagements and I’ve had to withdraw from a lot of them because I just can’t find the inspiration or motivation to work. I’ve found myself overthinking the negatives and letting that bring me down. I’m struggling to find positives in my life, work, art, and in everything, basically. I feel like I’m not doing enough, I’m not good enough, or that I’m not where I’m supposed to be.

Over time, I’ve realized that dwelling on the negatives just gives them more power to bring you down. Today, I want to dwell on the positives. The big things, the small things, the huge things, and the insignificant things- they all come together to make my life not suck as much as I think it does, and I think I really need this.

Today,

I’m thankful for my mom and dad and everything they have done and sacrificed to bring me where I am today. Apart from the fact that I literally wouldn’t exist without the both of them, they have done so much to mold me into the person I am today. I’m grateful.

I’m thankful for my brother, the absolute love of my life. He loves me so much and it warms my heart every time I think about him. I love him more than words can ever describe and I miss him so much every time I’m away from home.

I’m thankful for my sisters. They’re the best.

I’m thankful for my friends. All of them. I’m happy I have them in my life and some of them for so long, When I think about the fact that I’m still friends with some of them, I know I’m doing something right,

I’m thankful for my boyfriend. I’m extremely lucky to have him in my life,

I’m thankful for love, and for the ability to love and be loved.

I’m thankful for The Coven (TM) and how we’re always there for each other.

I’m thankful for the ability to put words to paper/keyboard (lol).

I’m thankful for the purple Always Sanitary pad and how it prevents me from that horrible period blood stench.

I’m thankful for sad music.

I’m thankful for Jhene Aiko, Drake, Rihanna, Christina Perri, Ariana Grande, Adele, and all my other faves.

I’m thankful for feminism.

I’m thankful for books, even though I can’t seem to read anything anymore.

I’m thankful for electricity and technology.

I’m thankful for life, even though it’s crazy hard.

I’m thankful for the ability to see. It’s really one of the most fragile senses, and I hope I never lose it.

I’m thankful for memories, even though they are extremely painful sometimes.

I’m thankful for laughter and for the ability to laugh.

I’m thankful for tearducts because I also love to cry.

I’m thankful for rap, hip hop, soul, rnb, and all other types of music.

I’m thankful for my job.

I’m thankful for lipgloss.

I’m thankful for my phone and laptop.

I’m thankful for my blog and all it’s readers.

That felt good. Bye.